Monday, June 10, 2013

5 things about 10th June 2013

my new favorite place that i visited last week !  with such a sweet interior :)


1. i only have one class (two hours) but i brought a huge bag instead. i prepared to swim after class but then i have a sudden meeting. which is such a dissapointing.. cs i miss swimming real bad! then im the only one attendant from my division. ok.
2. i have so many todolist im starting to be confused. i took many many many responsibilities in the second year, but i wanna be great in all. i mean it's not about me. it's about the responsibility that's tied to my name. i dont have a plan to ruin my own reputation if i have any. i started to miss my old lazy days.
3. im stressedout about academics. im starting to make a whole clearer plan about my academics and i have somuchtodolist also to make it true. and God, i have somanytodolist also from my works and volunteering and others so yeah... plus i need to hang with some friends also once in a while.
4. i have a huge admiration for those who can keep their relationship balance with a good harmony for such a long time. ok this explains much.
5. im a todolist junkie i forgot how much i wrote about it.



but anyway, im so much thankful for the days i have today, and yesterday, and the last few days, few weeks, few months, even maybe for tomorrow. i mean, the healthy body, the salary, the knowledge, the inspiration, the people,all the things are just beautifully complete me. i'm in a happy state now:)
been jogging and running for min. 3x per week with an app for android (myrunmap, nike+, etc) so i keep motivated and i can see the summary of my work out. plus now im doing yoga once a week in campus, again! well, these habits makes me really careful about what i eat 'cs the work outs i do wont help if i didnt balance with my healthy diet. let's shape a better, healthier generation!:)
have a nice day!

Saturday, June 8, 2013

movement

youth need a space to move around. to just blindly move or to move, make a fraction and be a bomb. we just can't stay in a freezing position, it's just how nature makes us.

pengalaman beberapa minggu belakagan ini, jogja lagi suka-sukanya bikin event. nggak keitung lagi berapa event musik dari tiap univ, tiap fakultas.. belum lagi acara donor darah, seminar public speaking, seminar ttg tenaga kerja, seminar kewirausahaan dan lain sebagainya. tema nya mirip-miri, cuma beda venue dan pembicara aja mungkin.

sekarang orang atau organisasi sering mengindikasikan ke-eksisan dengan bikin acara. padahal bikin acara nggak mudah, uang belum tentu memadai tanpa persiapan yg baik, dan juga schedule yg padat dan saling bertabrakan antar event. padahal, emang iya, acara itu cuma buat eksis-eksisan doang? emang iya eksis cuma dengan bikin acara?

kalo mau membuktikan ke-eksistensian sebuah organisasi atau pribadi, coba dilihat tujuannya. apa iya tujuan organisasi/pribadi bisa dicapai hanya dengan bikin event? bikin orang-orang informed juga perlu lho, dengan menulis atau bikin poster contohnya. apa iya eksis cuma dengan bikin event-event berbayar di berbagai tempat untuk pemuda? gimana kalo langsung ke tujuannya aja, misala nak jalanan atau anak panti dan sebagainya?

kebetulan, di IFL ada divisi khusus untuk bikin project (event). senengnya, sasaran kami variatif banget, nggak cuma anak muda, acaranya nggak cuma gitu-gitu aja, dan ada purpose spesifik dibelakangnya. jadi acaranya nggak 'berkompetisi' dengan acara-acara yang ramai digalakan berbagai organisasi/kampus/pribadi seperti yang sekarang ada.

percaya deh, kalo kita bikin project apapun, entah bikin event, bikin tulisan di media, atau apappun, kalo ada purpose atau passion yang jelas dan spesifik, pasti projectnya jadi beda dan lebih bermanfaat:D


Sunday, June 2, 2013

enjoying weekend

this is one of the good weekends i rarely had lately. this weekend i worked, i met my highschool friends, i studied, i tidy up my room, i made my dream board, collected good articles, read books, and all. those in 2 days. finally my weekend is made for me :)

after those hectic weekends ended, now i can finally have my time for myself. to think about my own self:what i really like, what i dont really like, what i wanna be, what i wanna fight for, what i wanna achieve, and all. it's not that it's a complex process of thinking, but i just have a clearer mind with more spare time. i even did yoga after thoseeee time i missed the schedule! im so much happy. really:)

those organizational thingies are enough. i met the ones i never known before. i've experienced the things i wanted to taste. and they're not my favorite:) i dont really fight for what i really want nor what i believe, and that doesnt add my happiness rate. i think i've got enough.

now that i know better what i really want, i'm ready to walk a bit more, run a little faster, to get it all in time.
bismillah, i know Allah will always be with me:)

Saturday, May 25, 2013

being happy

as i learnt through some lectures, i believe that we can never leave genes as a part of our daily habit. even a very little tiny molecular things that run in our body moves because of the genes. but as TIME said, it's not always about genes. there's called epigenetic that changes as we live, influenced by the environment. the environment here means the ecology, the humans, and all the things that we've been through.

sound like such a denial, but i believe that i may have this gene; to think negatively so easy. it makes me get panic, mad, and judge people easily. it's not that i blame my family to bring out this genes, it's just something that i embrace. a little thing like a missing pen makes my heartbeat goes faster. it's something i cant do something about. it's autonomic nerve system that follows the body, not my own will. what could i do about it? 

change my thoughts. breath in, breath out. 

as i embrace this, i try to take more control on my emotion. i read book about how to be happy but then after i read Brain Works, i realized: it's likely that the thoughts we have in mind comes from the memory we had. so i tried to fill my brain as much positive things as possible. that's captured as positive thoughts and i hope the output will be positive also.


and today, i met my best friends in such a coincidence, all the three! we went to a really cute place, and talked a bit. even we had to go through the crazy traffic jam during holiday and the heavy rain, but it was all worth it. im so much happy to have 'em. :)

and today i cleaned up my messy room from all of the corners. i tidied up my clothes, my books, my desk, and all. feel so much refreshed and productive. this is what i've wanted to do for such a long time but never had enough time to do it all:")

also had read BrainWorks in the morning. had finished 2/3 section! yay! this is such a great thing for me since i was so reluctant to finish even a book, and this is an english one, with not-so simle way of writings. i loveeeee this book! i love how this book reveal the way we live in such a scientific way. i love brain!!!

alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. all my wishes came true today. tripled happiness!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

take a gap year

"And for years, we've seen these students complete their gap years and return to college more focused, mature, and ready to learn. Now, new research is beginning to corroborate our observations -- by showing that students who take gap years outperform their peers throughout college."
"In a study of students at Middlebury College in Vermont, Robert Clagett -- a former dean of admissions at the school -- found that gap year participants graduated with higher GPAs than those of their peers."

"Most [incoming college] students, in my experience, don't really know what they're passionate about," Knight said. "And if you don't know what you want, then getting it becomes that much more difficult."

"Even elite universities like Harvard, Princeton, and the University of North Carolina are encouraging students to consider taking a year off before matriculation. Princeton's Bridge Year Program, for example, annually awards tens of scholarships to incoming freshmen to fund gap-year programs in Brazil, China, India, Peru, and Senegal."


"Without the gap year, I wouldn't have had the experience of knowing that it's okay to start something without knowing what you're doing," Michael told me. "I'm not sure what kinds of friends I'll have in college, or what kinds of groups I'll be a part of. But I'm ready to take more leaps."





because you know, they may have wandered around, experienced real strange things outta there, learn to face the real life or just have seen much, and now they're ready to sit still, listen to the lecture.
while me, here, barely listening to those doctors with my mind wanders around.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

State of Grace


"State Of Grace"

I'm walking fast through the traffic lights
Busy streets and busy lives
And all we know, is touch and go
We are alone with our changing minds
We fall in love 'til it hurts or bleeds or fades in time

And I never (never) saw you coming
And I'll never (ever) be the same

You come around and the armor falls
Pierce the room like a cannon ball
Now all we know is don't let go
We are alone, just you and me
Up in your room and our slates are clean
Just twin fire signs, four blue eyes

So you were never a saint
And I’ve loved in shades of wrong
We learn to live with the pain
Mosaic broken hearts
But this love is brave and wild

And I never (never) saw you coming
And I'll never (ever) be the same

This is a state of grace
This is the worthwhile fight
Love is a ruthless game
Unless you play it good and right
These are the hands of fate
You're my Achilles heel
This is the golden age of something good and right and real

And I never (never) saw you coming
And I'll never (ever) be the same
And I never (never) saw you coming
And I'll never (ever) be the same

This is a state of grace
This is the worthwhile fight
Love is a ruthless game
Unless you play it good and right

Sunday, March 10, 2013

a love letter to IFL Yogya


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is now listening to: http://8tracks.com/tangerinehearts/for-those-times-you-just-need-to-breathe
Some people said that im good on writing love letter. Love letter means a letter for the loved ones; family, friends, best friends, more-than-just-friend, etc. but I think I owe IFL a lot of things, I owe it a love letter. A love letter is simply a letter to express the love itself.
I started to curious about IFL since Iman Usman posted about it really often. It was just merely a curiosity. I knew iman usman from alanda kariza’s blog, and I knew alanda kariza from Ghiankr’s blog. I knew them around 2009. I loved them ever since. How they have achieved so much in such a young age inspired me a lot. I wanted to be like them.
Then I heard about IFL Yogya. As Said said (..?!) in our Facebook’s Group: liat deh archive IFL dulu. Semangatnya berkobar-kobar banget! And that was what I saw at that moment; a bunch of passionate youngsters who wanted to do more for the society. Dissa, my high school mate, joined it first by a close recruitment before they held an official open recruitment. She kinda gave me some info about it and supported me to join with her.
And it was  first time I ever applied to join a locally-scoped non-governmental organization. It was pretty scary at first. I saw my now-so-called colleague as those who had done much more than I had ever done. I barely knew them at first. But later.. they became such a warm family for me.
I applied for Public Relation. I love meeting new people. I love listening to people’s stories. And I believed that IFL would give me such a huge opportunity to meet great people ahead. And it was true. I had a solid team with mas Dias, mas Adit, Nunu, and… *put a sorry emote here ‘cs I forgot the name of my previous partner who later asked to di-bebas-tugaskan bcs of her school’s duty* (plus later with mba Tari). At first… I was intimidated. It’s only few people believe that I am an inferior, but I truly am an inferior. But they were really really nice. It was such a short period of time until I knew them better and got really close to ‘em.
Seminar Kewirausahaan dan Lomba Bussiness Plan was our first event. it was a huge success for me. We contacted local government, inspiring entrepreneurs and local schools. We worked hard to succeed this event without spending lots of money (which we obviously didn’t have). We made it in 3 districts; Sleman, Bantul and Kulon Progo.  It was… such a good time, I don’t lie J but then we got stuck into our awesome college life, and poof! Those spirits had gone for a while.
Some people come and go as the time goes  by; it also happened to us. Few people were missing during the duty, and then we agreed to do another open recruitment.  some people made it into the second oprec but not all of them made it last until this very second while the rest became our loveliest new family. :’D
Well in short, we trough few open recruitment until we’ve got this super lovely family.  And through the obstacles during these almost-two-years, we’ve successfully made some (what I will always say) awesome events. Name it: sumbang buku, seminar dan lomba business plan, Pekan untuk Panti, YOU+earTH, School of Volunteer (program nasional IFL),  the good meal project, IFLQuiz, dan yang ter-anyar adalah Youth Night. Belum lagi acara turun ke jalan untuk memperingati hari-hari besar tertentu.. nggak kerasa, we’ve done so much trough these 20 months. :”)
Kalo ditanya apa yang IFL berikan ke aku.. mungkin jawabannya bakalan sama kayak yang lain: pengalaman, temen-temen baru… tapi lebih dari itu, disini aku banyak banget belajar. I learn to grow, here. Disini temen-temen punya pikiran yang luas banget; we cant buy this one. Dengan lingkungan yang mendukung banget kayak gini, aku jadi lebih terpacu buat bekerja lebih baik dan berpikiran lebih terbuka. Mungkin aku salah satu dari anak yang lumayan kritis sampe kadang annoying he-he, but beyond it all, aku percaya bahwa sebenernya kita mampu kok untuk selalu berbuat lebih. And we proved it, for times.
Ditambah lagi otonomi yang diterapkan di organisasi ini; dimana kita Cuma dikasih tugas secara garis besar tapi beneran di bebasin untuk cara mencapainya. Hal ini bikin aku dan temen-temen satu divisi jadi lebih kreatif, team work kita pun jadi solid banget. Kita bisa bikin event-event secara dunia maya maupun face-to-face untuk achieve itu. Aku baru sadar baru-baru ini, bahwa IFL bener-bener menghargai kreativitas seseorang dan ngasih kepercayaan penuh pada team dan berimbas bagus banget buat kita sebagai ladang pembelajaran. Whoa, does it sound hyperbola?
Rapat PR seminggu sekali dan rapat besar IFL sebulan sekali; so far nggak ganggu jadwal kuliah. Or if it ever did, aku selalu ngutamain kampus dan temen-temen selalu memberi toleransi. There’s no such thing as being active without doing school properly. Buat orang-orang yang merasa bahwa aktif itu  berarti siap-siap akademis turun, hmm menurutku itu nggak bener as long as kita tau cara bagi waktu. Aku juga masih belajar, but so far, anak-anak IFL IPK nya bagus-bagus kok, semester satu masih ada aja yang sempurna, dan Alhamdulillah mine’s pretty much good too. Ada kalanya nilai-nilai itu ber-fluktuasi tapi aku yakin itu bukan karna occupied by IFL aja.
Satu hal juga yang berharga banget dari IFL adalah environtmentnya. Aku selalu suka waktu kumpul-kumpul IFL dimana kita brainstorm, berusaha nemuin masalah disociety tentang anak muda, berusaha cari jalan keluarnya, berusaha bikin sesuatu yang attractive buat anak-anak seumuran kita, berusaha bikin sebuah movement yang mungkin nggak massive, mungkin kecil, tapi apapun itu bentuknya harus menarik dan membawa perubahan, sekecil apapun itu. Secara nggak sadar juga, hal ini juga mengubah kita. bikin kitalebih sensitive sama issue sosial, sama sekitar, bin kita lebih toleransi, lebih kerja keras, kreatif, mandiri dan bertanggung jawab. Nggak ada sanksi apapun kalo kita nggak bekerja dengan baik di divisi kita masing-masing, tapi selalu ada rasa tanggung jawab dan keinginan untuk maju bareng IFL yang bikin aku personally (atau mungkin temen-temen lain juga) ngelakuin yang terbaik di pekerjaan-pekerjaan kita.
lingkungan ini hangat banget! Setelah capek brainstorm, bakalan ada sesi cerita-cerita dimana itu bisa diawalidari curhatan pribadi sampe ngomongin pararel universe. Adanya anak-anak dari SMA sampe berbagai jurusan di perkuliahan bikin ilmu-ku tambah banyak! Aku jadi tau hidupnya anak-anak jurusan lain, universitas lain, juga kehidupan orang-orang disekitar mereka  atau bahkan kehidupan mereka yang emang beda-beda banget. Atau karena memang aku suka dengan cerita-cerita orang lain ya? Tapi aku bener-bener bersyukur bisa kenal baik sama mereka dan tau banyak hal dari mereka. Their favorite things dari mulai girl band, berbagai band indie, gigs, radio announcer, debaters, healthy life style, film, books, dan banyak hal lainnya bikin pengetahuanku lebih luas lagi. and the funny thing is, fakta bahwa kita bisa saling terkait, as Jogja seemed really small.


And I ended this leter by saying this to you: that IFL is not merely a non-governmental organization. It’s more like a home for a warm family which teaches us about life, gives us freedom to grow, helps us find not only an identity but also idealism,  supports us to achieve our dreams and goals; the best company during the sunny and rainy days.
You dont ask for new friends, new opportunities, and all are nationally-scoped; you will get those all in time. But the joy and the happiness, the good time we spend during the hard work for the better society..would be beyond our –or even my, expectation.