The little joy inside of us

This was one of the rough nights. Cila muntah, kami ganti sprei dan ganti baju Cila, Cila ngoceh ketawa-ketawa  dariiii jam 6 sampe jam 10 malem... sampe aku belakangi dia (karena sudah lewat jam tidur).. dan masih aja dia ketawa-ketawa sendiri.. even setelah muntah! lalu hening.. 5 menit berlalu.. aku balik badan.. she was magically just slept!! after all this time!! fyuuuuh.

Aku sering denger buibu lain bilang kalo liat anaknya tidur suka pengen bangunin, tapi aku malah suka banget liat anakku tidur. Kayak, tenang aja gitu.. happy.. seneng liat wajahnya yang sangat amat polos gemessshh. Dan biasanya, tiap liat anak tidur (dan aku belum ngantuk), jadi mikir banyak hal tentang dia, aku sebagai ibu, dan masadepan kami. Semoga apa yang mama usahakanuntuk kamu membantu kamu untuk tumbuh jadi anak yang sehat dan baik hati ya sayang.. Tuh kan mellow! :")

Another Day, Another Question

One day someone (kinda) told me to support my husband regarding his study, despite of being a new father. Well in fact, i don't think i ever supported him less than what he deserves. Most of the time i cook for him, i clean the house, wash the dishes, do the laundry meanwhile i still regularly breastfeed my baby (except for a month and half post partum i didn't do any housechores). And I leave all my life to be around him. If that is not a form of support, i don't think what it is.

Meanwhile motherhood journey is quite lonely. No one really asked me about how my husband support me for that. People may assume thay it comes naturally that women can be a mother right after the baby born, but the truth is taking care of newborn is not easy. I think every women is deserved to be supported in any way by anyone during her transition for her new role. Is she well-fed? Is she well-rested? Does she need more help? 

Life is changing after baby. It is a whole lot more challenging than ever, but it's also soooo much more rewarding. It's such a beautiful beautiful journey indeed 🌸