Ninoscha: December never felt so wrong

now playing: Winter Song - Sara Bareilles

i've been longing for December. i love December since i knew the names of months. i always love the holiday scent, chirstmas decoration, winter, snow, hot choco, marshmallow, gift, family time, lovey dovey things, spirit, happiness and all the things that's connected with December.

thanks for the tv, movie, pictures on tumblr, etcetc which introduced me with this kind of joy; that living the day in this month could be so much relaxing.. no matter what happens, i'll always be remembering myself that this is December, all the things can turn bad but i have to remain happy 'cause December is like an iceberg, slowly melt and then we could only see the pictures of it.

starting this month with a bunch of exams preparation. thankful for whatever God will give me this block:-) then my brother's marriage, then now. but you know, things get.... idk. i get the busiest schedule this month. it's kinda sad but i have to take my responsibility. name it: pemira, uhc, magang bem hublu, isc, MC team cimsa... all came up to me in a month. but beyond it all, i'm thankful for the trust people had given to me... it feels really really good for finally work on something again.

i will not say that December is such a perfect month. there was a weekend when i was soo sad that i couldn't sleep. i only cried, listened to sad songs, felt miserable, read self helping articles on web, watched a sad movie.. until i felt asleep in the morning about 7 am.

but i think i need that point. to get back on my track, to realize few things i'd been ignored, to do some betterment, to stand still on my own feet, to get clearer vision of mine. to hug back what's been left.

i'm trying to stick hardder on my schedule i've made. i found lately that i often forgot some important to-do-list points and it ruined the other day, ruined the result.

just found out that i really love dr.House, and soooooo sad about the final season of Gossip girls and grey's anatomy. they are all my heroes during the hard times, during the boredom since i was soooooo young (now im 18, remember?:p) they are legend!!!!!!! what's the next legend,anw? i personally cant find myself love How I Met Your Mother, but i love the quotes anw.:p

well, happy holiday, Peeps! it's a joyful month. live it!

anw, i don't have any plan for new year's eve. who's with me?._.