still

You came out so perfect I found no words to describe.

World hasn’t invented the word for: a perfect guy i strangely knew in a short amount of time like i’ve known each other for forever and makes my heart beats a whole lot faster than it used to be. And it wasn't even existed in my fantasy… it shoot me hard because I never realized that the reality could be this…. Wonderful.

You. The one I wish I could tell my day all-about in the end of the day. The one that I wish I know his whole day, including with whom he was having lunch with, what was the last meal he ate, or even what’s his homework for tomorrow. The one that I will listen to, even it’s kinda boring, like the 20-times-repeated of his first Olympiad-winning story. I will weep his tears when he talked about his first so-called failure. I will genuinely listen to his dreams and support him all the way to achieve them all. The one that makes me stop counting how many tears and fights I’ve been getting through only to be forever with him.

But you know, life is not simply a fairytale.

So there was an afternoon when we met and I smiled so much.

But 5 minutes later I was extremely sad, I didn’t know why at first.

Later on, when my brain had functioned well, I realized.

you couldnt be mine.